-A story to tell people not to be afraid to express their feelings-
# falling in love ? nda semestinya happy sampai ke penghujung . nda semuanya berakhir dengan kegembiraan . berani katakan " i love you " dengan dia ? emm , myb berani sebab kamu betul-betul suka dengan dia sudah , kan ? myb takut sebab kamu takut dia nda terima kamu atau nanti kamu takut dia ndakan pandang kamu lagi . susahnya ):
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kita mulakan cerita (:
she had a boyfriend , she grew up with him .
bagi dia , cuma lelaki tulah satu-satunya untuk dia . tiada orang lain sudah dapat ganti tempat lelaki tu .
&& to her , that boy is the most important && precious .
TAPI , bagi tu lelaki . she was just another girl...
GIRL : hey , wanna go to a movie .
GUY : i can't .
GIRL : why ? do you need to study at home or something ?
GUY : emm , NO .
GIRL : then , what are you doing ?
GUY : i'm meeting up with... a friend .
perkara biasa (: he met girls in front of her . ohhh ! macamana perasaan tu ? dibuat macam tiada perasaan jak ):
to him , she was just another one of his girlfriend .
shiittt juga kan ? emm .
the word L-O-V-E never came out of his mouth , only her's .
sejak dia kenal dengan tu lelaki , nda pernah sekali pun dia dengar perkataan " I LOVE YOU " dari dia .
to him , there weren't any anniversaries at all . he didn't say anything from the first day && it continued till 100 days....200 days...
everyday , before they say goodbye . he would just hand her a doll . everyday , non-stop && fail . she didn't know why .
GIRL : hey you .
GUY : what ? don't drag , just say .
GIRL : I LOVE YOU .
GUY : em ? you what ? just take this doll , && go home .
that was how he ignored her ' three words ' && handed her the doll .
then her disapeared , as if he was running away .
patung yang dia terima dari lelaki tu , sudah memenuhi biliknya . one by one . && semakin banyak .
then one day come , her 16th year old birthday . when she got up in the morning , she pictured a party with him (:
she stranded herself in her room , waiting for his call .
but... lunch passed , dinner passed && soon the sky was dark . he still didn't call .
it was tiring to look at the phone anymore ):
then , yeahh ! around 2am in the morning , he suddenly called her && woke her up from her sleep .
then , he told her to go outside her house , she was so excited :3
GIRL : hey you .
GUY : here , take this .
# && again , he handed her a little doll .
GIRL : what's this ?
GUY : i didn't give it to you yesterday . so , i am giving it to you now . i'm going home now , bye !
GIRL : wait ! do you know what today is ?
GUY : today ? what about it ?
her heart sank . dia sangka lelaki tu ingat birthday nya . lelaki tu berpusing && berjalan pulang seperti tiada apa-apa terjadi .
but , before he could get away she shouted " WAIT ! "
GUY : you have something to say ?
GIRL : tell me... tell me that you love me .
GUY : what did you say ?
GIRL : tell me please ! it's just three words .
GUY : I DON'T WANT TO SAY ! that i love someone so easily , if you're desperate to hear it . then find someone else !
that what was he said . then he ran off .
how could he . she felt that maybe he is not the right guy for her .
after that day , she stranded herself at home crying , just crying . he didn't call her , although she was waiting . he just continued handing her a little doll every morning outside her house .
that's how those the dolls piled up in her room . everyday (:
after a month , she got myself together && went to school . but what made the pain resurface was that .
she saw him on a street , with another girl .
he had a smile on his face . one that he never showed her as he touched the doll .
she ran straight back home && looked at the dolls in her room , && tears fell . why did he gave these to her ?
those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls .
in a fit of anger , she threw the dolls around .
THEN , THE PHONE RANG .
it was him .
he told her to come out to the bus stop outside her house . she tried to calm herself down && walked to the bus stop .
she kept reminding herself that she was going to forget him . that , it's going to end . then , he came into her sight . HE WAS HOLDING THE BIG DOLL .
GUY : you came . i thought you were upset .
she couldn't help hating him . acting like nothing had happen && joking around . soon , he held out the doll as usual .
GIRL : I DON'T NEED IT !
GUY : what ? why ?
she grabbed the doll from his hand && threw it on the road .
GIRL : i don't need this doll ! i don't need it anymore ! i don't want to see a person like you EVER AGAIN !
she spat out the words .
but , unlike any other day . his eyes were shaking .
" I'M SORRY " he apologized in a tiny && shaking voice .
he then walked over to the road to pick up the doll .
GIRL : you stupid ! just leave the doll , throw it away !
but he ignored her . then...
HONK - HONK - HONK
with the loud honks the big truck was heading toward him .
GIRL : MOVE ! move away !
she shouted as loud as she could .
he stood up && look at her with sad eyes ):
then____
BBBOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM !
the sound was terrifying , she screamed && she cried .
but nothing could bring him back ):
no matter how much she wished that she could take back the words that she said to him . -she couldn't-
&& that's was how he went away from her .
after that day , she had to go through everyday with guiltiness && the sadness of losing him .
&& after spending two months like a crazy person . she finally took out the dolls .
those were the only gifts he left her since the day they started going out . she remembered the days she spent with him . && she started counting the days , when they were in love....
" ONE , TWO , THREE " that was how she started to count the dolls .
" FOUR HUNDRED AND EIGHTY FOUR . FOUR HUNDRED AND EIGHTY FIVE "
it all ended with 485 dolls .
she then started to cry again , with a doll in her arms . she hugged it tightly , then suddenly...
" I LOVE YOU " " I LOVE YOU " " I LOVE YOU "
SHE DROPPED THE DOLLS , SHOCKED !
" i..lo..ve..you ? " she picked up the dolls && pressed its stomach .
" I LOVE YOU " " I LOVE YOU "
it can't be ! she pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side .
" I LOVE YOU " " I LOVE YOU " " I LOVE YOU "
those word came out non-stop . I..LOVE YOU . why didn't she realize that ? that his heart was always by her side , protecting me .
why didn't she realize that he love her this much . she took out the doll under the bed && pressed it's stomach .
that was the last doll , the one that fell on the road . it had a blood stain on it .
the voice came out . that she was missing so much .
" Hun , do you know what today is ? we've been loving each other for 486 days . do you know what 486 days is ? i couldn't say i love you . em , since i was too shy . if you forgive me && take this doll , i will say that I LOVE YOU "
the tears came flowing out of her . WHY ? WHY ? she asked God . why does she only know about all this now ? he can't be by her side but he loved her until his last minute .
for that , && for that reason to her , it became courage to live a beautiful life .
- THE END -
salam sayang : pkajiel
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